My Bug, Rhagan

Thank you Lord for this day.

I have spent 246 days with my sweet angel. I can't help but count the days. I take thousands of pictures, snuggle her constantly, and love her endlessly. While feeding Aralyn earlier I began to cry. I cry a lot. I look at her nose, chin, eyes, hair, everything and try to memorize every little detail. I never want to forget those details. Rhagan walked up and patted my hand, kissed his sister, and said, "Mommy, when she goes to play with Jesus I will hold your hand and help you.". I have the sweetest, smartest, most mature 4 year old on the face of the Earth. Thank you God for him. Rhagan can walk in a room and put a smile on every single face. He is absolutely amazing! Today was a pretty good day thanks to my sweet baby boy. He may be wild, loud, hyperactive, and smelly but always by my side. He is a Mama's boy. I am strong because he needs me to be. I am kind because I want him to be. I will never forget the day when Rhagan asked me for a little sister for Christmas. I didn't really expect to get pregnant immediately after either. But I did and he was thrilled. Before we knew the sex of the baby, he insisted on calling her Elmo. Throughout my pregnancy he would rub my belly, kiss my belly, and talk to my belly. Before bed every night her would say, "Good night, Elmo. Love you.". So precious. The day I told him that his sister had a boo boo was one of the hardest days of my life. He told me over and over to kiss her boo boo and make it all better. I wish I could. Such a brave little boy. I don't talk much about Rhagan in my posts because I'm always giving an update on Aralyn but today is his day. I love him to pieces and God could not have given me a greater son! He teaches me life lessons every day and I cherish every day I have with him. He is the 4 year old who holds my heart.
Love <3