I didn't realize how long it had been until I looked at the date on my last post. It has been quite a while. Many things have changed since the last post, but it would take me too long to go over. In a simple recap, Aralyn is still proving doctors wrong, I'm now a single mom, in home therapy is more enjoyable than going to a clinic, the only two doctors who went out of their way to help Bunny have retired, and doctors are still unable to give us answers to anything.
Now, to the "big" question of why I stopped blogging. The most honest answer I can give is that I'm weak. I have real feelings. When I receive an email saying that I should "put her out of her misery", I cry. Words hurt. I assume that whoever came up with the whole "sticks and stone" mess hadn't heard words like I have. I've said it before and I'll say it again. My child, my blessing, my miracle is NOT a child of the devil. I will not stop fighting for her. I will not stop caring for her. I will not stop searching for doctors who care. I will not stop feeding her. I will not stop giving her the medications she needs. I will not stop her therapists who help her reach milestones. I WILL NOT STOP! Your cruel messages may cause me pain, but they do not affect the love I have for my precious Bunny.
What's current with Aralyn? She's sick. I know, I know. That's not new news, but it is what it is. Tonight, she's had a two hour, going on three, crying fit. I'm still at a loss. I don't know what's wrong. She can't point to her "boo boo". She can't say where it hurts. All I know is that she is hurting. On top of that, her lungs are crackling and she's getting a breathing treatment every four hours. Her night nurse got here, did her evaluation, and can't give any answers either.
Like I said in the title, baby steps. Getting back to blogging is going to take time. I don't want to lose to those mean people, but I can only handle so many hateful words before I break.
Thank you to all of those who love, support, and believe in Aralyn.
Love and blessings!
You are such a strong woman, Whitney. I know after being strong it is hard to deal with feelings of weakness. Please do not ever forget that God is with you and Miss A. He will carry you and her through this, whatever he decides. Miss A is a miracle. She carries the name Faith. She has inspired more people in her almost 2 years than I have my entire life. She has inspired me. You have inspired me. Miss A was put her for a reason. God may only be the one who knows exactly what it is right now, but I have to say, she has changed my life. We will continue to pray. We love you all <3
ReplyDeleteYay, Whitney! I am so glad you are doing this again. You are not weak. You are one of the strongest women I know. Aralyn is a beautiful, amazing baby girl. And she has come such a long way, with your love and encouragement. And just ignore the horrible messages from awful people that don't know and care about you guys. Those people are just miserable with their own lives and have to drag others down. I love hearing what you have to say. Love you guys! <3 Amber
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